give up...or stay fighting????

1 year...i havent defend my proposal...feeling frustrated, it cannot be ignored...i just can see the sparkling of light at the end of the tunnel...AFTER ONE YEAR...imagine that. I thought doing phd is just as simple as doing my master...nope...i'm wrong, obviously wrong...

Alhamdulillah, i managed to write out 50-page proposal...still, i dont have the heart to send it to Dr aiza, i fel that it looks silly...it doesnt reach the level of phd yet...still inside my heart, i whispered...u can do it...take a step at a time...you can do it...but...am i on the right track????

Confusion...confusion...frustration...frustration...i', so afraid but i cannot voice it to others...giving up or stay fighting for it????i'm really confused...