not again...pls...

again...he is moody, just dunno what i'm supposed to do, any action that i deid which against his wish sill end me up in the hell...at least for a few coming days...i just dunno what to expect from him, feeling frustrated, yes..as if all my sacrifices are not paid off...

This is my daily time table from sunday to tuesday..
530 am ironing the kids' bj skolah
700 am go to school n send dina nag angah
200 pm g terapi skjap smntara tunggu ini blk fardu ain - mind u, im teaching 26 solid English and muet periods..imagine how tired i am by noon
315 pm ambik angah, send him home, so that he'll have his lunch and bath
345 pm ambik dina, hantar blk, singgah sembahyang zohor n mandi, ambik angah, hntr billion n terus g maahad, fetch along
530 pm sampai rumah...teman amir mkn nasi
745 pm hantar anak2 tuition n tahfiz
1000 pm ambik anak2
blm lg masa aku g accompany amir jumpa kwn2 dia, chatting or playing bowling...when is the time for myself?????
Yet, amir can easily show face to me...as if i didnt contribute anything to our marriage...praises for me??? only in front of his friends...duit blnja...aku mmg tak sempat buat saving...all gone for my kids and the households...apa lagi yang tak puas hatinya???

are there anybody in this world yang hidupnya tenang tanpa masalah??? i just wonder because i keep telling myself, it's ok nee, relax...let him be.... although the smtms it's just to much to bear...

i know just how to whisper n i know jst how to cry
i know just where to find the answer and i know just when to lie
but i don't know how to leave u, n i'll never let you fall...

it's okay...i'll face it as long as my strenth is still there...once it's gone...i think it's about the time for me to make the ultimate decision for my life...not for the 3 iman anymore...who knows...