tension...

amir went to kl last nite just to get pieces of old money..i guess a new business is on..i just let him with his business...cik su called, to get a help..may be regarding her financial problem...if i were you, i wud come back home, satart anew...i just cannt take it any more...everybody seems to think i have a lot of money...the fact is...bullshit...im damn broke...apis pun another story...weird...it reaches the level that i cannot trust you anymore...too many stories...ehsan dgn ceritanya...i really pity him, to have a long distance marriage is not easy to handle...be patient..ije pulak at this age, sometimes just like toddlers wanting some sweets...abah dgn cara dia...itulah bahananya bila dapat bini yg anginnya muda...if only they can mellow down, my family can unite again, somethingt is amiss in this family...i guess it's the way we were brought up...but, i really miss the happiness that once Allah gave to us...

i hope that maymay can understand me...at least once..understand how i'm afraid of him...his words...im more vocal but then, im more direct...dunno...im fated to face all these i guess..

Ya Allah...aku tunduk berserah...satukanlah kembali keluarga ku...kukuhkanlah ikatan perkahwinanku...berkatilah hidup anak2 ku, murahkanlah rezki kami, ya Allah...